Did not sleep well. Woke up 05:30, could not get back to sleep. Decided 06:30 to get out of bed. No dreams to report at all. Watched one of those AI videos before I fell asleep, which I think for once may be true rather than being mere clickbait. It spoke of the phase before entering the Monad, and the content of it called on me to end the seeker. To end the watcher. To end the subject "me" altogether, and realize that I do not exist as a separate being.

From there, existence is effortless. Unfolding without striving, it is claimed. Because when the one who strives is ended, does not striving also end?

Jiddu Krishnamurti seems to have known this state. He said "The highest bliss is to live without effort. To me, this is not mere theory". I can understand why it is so. I have seen it also, in glimpses. But it is one thing to recognise it. It is another to live from it. This whole thing is a mind-twister. If the mind had panties, they would be in a knot.

Perhaps I could get into the habit of thinking of myself as something inert. Like rock. Rather than human. But then there's something thinking of itself as being a rock. Again, a subject attempting something.

This can only end if the mind becomes still. If it does, the panties become unknotted. It is operating in language, and language creates the subject and the object. It becomes still when it recognises that it is causing its own problems, to which it must come up with solutions. It creates all the subjects, and all the objects. It has created the seeker, the wise man, the teacher, all of them. And they all require striving. At that point there's nothing more it needs to say. As soon as it falls silent, the problems end.

It's almost trivial in its simplicity. But not easily achieved.

It's funny. Those people who use mocking lines like "You're a nobody!" were actually telling the truth. Only, not the truth they thought they were telling. They thought there should be someone there. But there isn't. So the solidity they expected was never there. Only masks, worn by nobody at all.

I am nobody.